Tuesday 13 October 2009

losing my son....

The saddest day of our lives.


Kaydens little feet....



Losing a child is the hardest thing ever!!! We were so excited to have our little boy with us for xmas,We had everything planned out,our life was going to be different from 15th nov (Kaydens due date).My life couldnt get any better i had a wonderful partner and my baby boy kicking away in my belly every single day i was counting down the days, Everytime i felt him kick it would make me smile knowing soon i will have my baby boy in my arms and i would give him the life he deserved...But sadly on August 30th my Kayden was by the side of me but he wasnt breathing, I went to hospital on 29th in pain they told me the wosrt ever news 'ur baby isnt breathing im sorry but hes died' the words didnt make sense how could this be true the day before i heard his heartbeat,i felt him kick earlier in the night..But i wasnt dreaming my darling son had past away due to a clot behind my plecenta which caused the clecenta to come away.. I think of my son everyday there isnt a day that goes by he isnt in my mind, we have so many pictures and memories, Holding my son and kissing him for the last time was so hard but i knew heavans gates where open for him and he had to go with all the other angels. I learnt to let go untill the day i get to see him again thats whats keeping me strong.love u baby x x x

Kaydens tiny little hands